"One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today."
Been humming this song for daaaays now. Not sure if that’s a good thing. Ah, well.
J. Cole - Born Sinner
Tom Ford: From the Spoken Ramblings series. (Prequel to James Dean) —————————>
Now hit record.
Make sure that red light go on cause that always make me feel like I can be anything in the world
Like I got my good suit on and I’m just standing on stage feeling like Tom Ford
Which means I’m doin the most
I’m red light livin meaning all you gotta do is name a coast
And there I go
Living the dream, and thanking the team, yeah there I go
Taking it in, and enjoying the win, I said, there I go
Seeing the sights, shinning as bright as the lights…you know, there I go
Till they turn the red light off
And I look around and hot damn! The fantasy is gone
Like, they took all of it. Couldn’t have even left me a souvenir so I can reminisce a little bit
That party train done left the station. Woot wooooot! No terms for negotiation
So good luck with the rest of your life, I mean your hustle, you know, go build the nation, and e-v-e-r-ything…
And that’s the story of how I ended up in the dark, feeling like James Dean
Like somebody hit the lights and aint nobody come around to see how I been
Haven’t seen the sun in bout 3 or 4 days but I bet you that nigga still shinning
I bet you everyone I’m mad about aint even out there whining
They just poppin they collar, they just out here doin this thing they call living
Days like this I wonder if God looks down at me and just gets bored
Or maybe He just wants me to get up again and put on my Tom Ford
Whatever man, Hit record.
James Dean: - The spoken ramblings of an insomniac
And then the day comes when you’ve spent so much time tumbling around in the mud that you can no longer recognize yourself when someone offers to wash you clean
Same day that someone offers you a supposed ‘solution’ and you just stand and stare at them because you don’t know what they mean
Like your old self just been on the streets holding up a sign with your face on it that reads ‘Last Seen…’
Neighbors on the corner just telling the news lady like ‘Nah, we aint seen her round here since she was about 16…’
Mounds of Success, piles of regret, achievement, missteps, high hi’s and even lower low’s - and don’t nobody really know but somehow they’ve all managed to turn you into a fiend
Word to Jermaine Cole cause right now I just…I just…. “I can’t be what you want from me’
Tried to go back to sleep a couple times but my nightmares aint playing nice this week so I guess in the end I’m just a rebel, without a cause .
Been three days and I’m still walkin around here like James Dean. Still walkin around without a cause so I guess…a yo, …just go ahead and press pause
"Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present, you need to live the
question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day"
-Rainer Maria Rilke
#Twende Kazi. The Live Finale. Full Episode. Thank you London, Best time I’ve had in a long long time. #BelieeDat
Question: How long till we get to gorgeous?
Feel like I’ve overdone the middle. Blurgh.
"I’d rather deal with disappointment than live with not knowing. Let-downs are occasionally good for your expectations. They put things in perspective and build resilience. So no, I aint mad at myself for ever having had hope."